I'm gonna be mad.

I afraid i need a psychologist or psychiatrist soon.
I afraid i'm gonna be mad.
I'm slightly weak mentally.
I like to think. Think illogically, think far away from reality.
Hoping on something, although there would be no desirable results. But still, I wanna put hope on it.
Waiting for something, someone, with stupidity.
Blaming on others, without expressing it out. Blaming in the heart, only.

I'm so so so so stupid. I wanna kill myself.
I'm gonna be mad.