年终的抒发。

五味杂陈。

年尾了，看来我只剩下最后一个学期了。是兴奋呢？还是紧张？

是紧张吧，我得加油了！

这几个月月到的事情好多好多，让我好不难过。没有很伤心，只是偶尔让人心痛。只怪自己和好人没有缘分吧。哈哈。很多人就是这样，表里不一，说一套做一套。又有些人自以为是，以为自己对完，别人做的都是错的。有些人就只会来搅和。很多很多，写成十本书也写不完。

但是，还是有些人至少在别人需要帮忙和安慰是会伸出援手，至少，让我觉得我并不是那么孤单。

都最后一年了，我只希望可以好好渡过剩下的日子，和朋友们一起奋斗加油，一起毕业。其他的，我都不想了。你们要怎样就怎样，要伤害人就伤害人，随你们去吧。不要来打扰我。

Stressful Life

Feeling sick with this hectic and stressful dental student final year life. I hope it will end soon, I hope.

It's good that it almost comes to the end. However, it's not that good though.
Fulfilling requirements are the things we do everyday. Stressed, if we cannot complete what we want to do.

It's so stressful.

我要控制自己。

心情很差。

不应该为那样的事情而让自己烦上一整天。是自己笨，控制不了自己。

还有，最怕的事情恐怕又发生了。不懂他在想什么。只是觉得害怕。那是一种伤害，没有人会明白。只有自己知自己事。是真的很伤人。

觉得自己总是在做无谓的事情。想掩饰，却掩饰不了。自己的缺点往往都被曝露。结果就好像傻子一样，默默地承受别人的讽刺和嘲笑。

为什么人家可以，而我不可以？这只有我懂，没有人会了解。真的很累了。很想改变，却又改变不了。说得轻松，做起来却是难上加难。

很累啊。不再想要这样的生活。我活在这世上不只是为了这样的事。要活得精彩，活出自我。琐碎的事，我不想让它来烦扰着我。我要控制自己的脑袋。

希望可以做得到。

YOU-L.I.A.R.!

YOU! It's YOU!

Stupid LIAR, do you know that you've hurt me very much? Remember what have you said? You said you will love me forever. But in the end you stopped loving me.

L.I.A.R!

Now you have another one, I'm not important for you anymore. I don't hope to see you everyday, but I have to. I have no choice.

And please don't show that face to me, I HATE IT! I really hate it. Don't pretend like you're so innocent, as if I'm the one who was doing the wrong things. I assume you already have something before it.

LIAR.

Never

He's never to be considerate, since the beginning until now.
He never understand my feeling, never.

He's so cruel to me.
He never try to save, never. He just left.
He's so damn fucking stupid. Yeah, he's stupid. You won't know how stupid he is.
He's so stubborn, and he never try to improve himself.

And I will not keep him in my heart anymore. NEVER.

I HATE HIM

I HATE HIM!

I HATE HIM!

HATE HIM HATE HIM HATE HIM!

梦想

我是一个很爱胡思乱想的人。认识我不深的人就不会酱觉得。

我常常梦想啊，以后的生活会是怎样呢。

我常常梦想啊，身旁的人会是谁呢。

我常常梦想啊。不停地梦想。

昨天看了《铁达尼号》这部经典巨作。这是一部可以令人深思的电影。男主角抱着伟大的梦想，继续在污浊的人世间生存下去。不料，他却在一场令人难以预料的灾难中丧生。如果他得以生存，他的未来会不会好像太阳般炽热，明亮呢？

世事难料。有梦想可是难以实现。

那时不是应该把握现在的每一件事物，珍惜所拥有的每一分每一秒呢？如果没有机会去到未来，也至少拥有现在。

有梦想是好事，没有梦想就不好。人生没有了梦想，就不会有那股推动力来让人努力爬着梯子，往更高的地方去。没有了梦想，就没有希望。

即使你说，你是为了某些人来生存下去，那个人就是你的梦想根希望，不是吗？

梦想适可而止就好，太多了就会让人忽略了应该把握的事物。

第五年的第一个星期

星期一
前一晚竟然难以入眠（应该是睡惯了家里的大床吧）。
早上九点正就开始上课了。第一天不是应该很轻松吗？呵呵。
新生们来到了old fac,想不到有些学长姐来不及见他们，O就暂时停止了。90后的小孩果然禁不起小小的考验。*叹气*

星期二
拍档开始了她在第五年的第一个clinic，开工大吉。哈哈。

星期三
公公给briefing，听得我好压力。心想：我的第五年能够安全度过吗？希望可以赶往所有需要做的事情，然后大家毕业典礼见。=）

星期四
又是无聊的一天。天使捎来好消息：7副假牙。哈哈，全班笑呵呵的，大家都很高兴。

星期五
早上做elective project,进度超慢的。什么时候才能做完呢？唉。

PreFinal year's expressions

I'm going to become a final year student, officially, on next Monday. And it's in less than one week time. Final year life had been described by my seniors as the most busy and stressful life in dental student life. I don't hope for anything which could not happen to me, haha. I just need a PASS at the end of final year, and graduate smoothly without any obstacles. I saw, in the previous batch, there were 11 seniors who could not pass the exam, and they had to extend their studies for 6 months! Oh gosh, I really dun hope it to happen to me... I know I am not the excellent one or any top students in my dental school, and therefore I really need to work out harder on my studies, and especially in clinical schedules (and they're really torturing and tiring!)
And now, I'm having my final week of the holidays, hope to meet my old friends after few days.. It has been a long time we did not meet each others since the last gatherings.
Hey, friends! Let's work harder for our final year clinical life, and I'm looking forward to our graduation next year=) Cheers!

To my dear

Dear, I miss you=)

*生气*

为什么迟钝的人越来越多了？

很辛苦啊

有时觉得很辛苦。
常常会觉得活在这世界上，自己是多余的。
别人从来不在乎你怎么想，只顾自己。
或者是，你一点也不重要，所以就睬你都傻。
是自己笨吧，也或许是自己太心软了吧。对，应该就是这样。
常常劝自己别再这样了。到最后结果还不是一样。

有人说：独立吧。
我早就已经学习独立了。不靠自己，还要靠谁？
可是往往不是你要独立就能够的。
唉。
毕竟，也已经独立了几年。

好怀念中学时还有预科班的时候，一大班人常常凑在一起，互相聆听对方的心事。
那是多美好的一件事啊。
嗯，也许是我的人格有问题，又或者是别人认为我的人格有问题，都不愿与我分享了。
我已经很努力的在改变了。
只希望自己可以变得成熟些。
很多可以避免的尴尬与冷战，我都不让它发生了。
很多时候我都是在忍耐。
除了忍耐，还是忍耐。

会不会是我的个性和大多数人的不同？
意见想法很多时候都不一样。
即使从前是一样，久而久之就变异了。说的不是我，是别人。

从前的日子往往叫人回味无穷，可是当时却不懂得珍惜。
失去了才来后悔。
还能做些什么呢？

只希望时间快转，让不快乐的日子渐渐逝去。
让我重新获得以前快乐，无忧无虑的日子。
只可惜，在迈入“大人”的生活的当儿，这些就会变成奢望。

I'm tired

Don't think you can try to compensate in this way. And don't blame me again for couldn't make it.
Why did you never realize that? Shall I remind you all the times?
I feel tired. I really don't wanna wear the mask again and again. You know it.

给自己的感言

今天感触良多。给自己的感言：
1. 待人要真诚。
2. 忘了他吧。你不是他那杯红酒。
3. 努力吧！
4. 寂寞不是一切。

有酱的人，真的是够显

听过无事不登三宝殿吗？在我们周围就很多酱的人。
无事不登三宝殿，有事就会来相见；
有事才会来找你，没事就懒得理你。
够显。

Have just back from Sunway Pyramid. Spent A LOT!
Hmm, it's time to start studying.
I need to work harder than others as i haven't started to study at all before this. Sigh.
Gambate! and Good Luck for myself=)

Am I that stupid??

Yeah one of my friends told me: you shouldn't expect too much.
That's true.
Who am I? I'm just one of the friends. The simplest one: I'm nothing.
Therefore, i should not have expected much.